The traditional late night UK post drinking snack often tends to be the Kebab. But this repulsive (sorry to all who eat them, but they are) snack now has an additional reason for you not to eat them – and that is, do you know where the meat came from?
“It was not clear from the statement if the kiosk had cooked any of the man’s flesh and sold it to customers.“
I only ever attempted to eat one of these on three occasions – from separate venues – and each time I was violently ill. And that is without the thought of them containing such alien flesh…. It’s a shame as back in Germany the Gyros is a proper restaurant quality meal. But I always had to sustain myself with the traditional cheeseburger or some other form of take out, until I became a Vegetarian. But even the smell of a kebab is enough to make me feel sick, let alone the thought of what they may now contain.
I am procrastinating, putting off writing another 2k for nanowrimo – having already reached the 40k mark yesterday. Motivation is hard, when all you want to do is…. well something else. lol But I am so close now to completing this insane challenge, that it would be rude and pointless to do so.
“Are you ready? For the war?”
But I am having fun – listening to great tunes, such as INVADERS MUST DIE and a back catalogue of Killing Joke tunes. I do find music is helping me block out the immediate outside world and get into a flow. It doesn’t always work, but times like now my fingers love dancing across the keys to the speed of the music; rapid fire thoughts beget rapid digit-ry. Rapid tunes properly evoke the world in which my characters dwell; catapulting me back to a simpler time when the artificial stimulus was all that mattered. When the ‘could be’ was better than the ‘is’.
“Show your colours, bring your colours to the floor.”
After a difficult last ditch effort I have made it to my self-imposed milestone of 35k! Nice. At the moment there is too much character and not enough horror. But that I think I can fix. Later.
I am still in a relative limbo. I am unsure where my novel is heading – don’t get me wrong, I know the ending and I have a plot. Only it has holes in it, holes that I was unable to shore up before starting this insane race. But not only am I in uncharted plot territory, I am also in uncharted novel writing territory, having ever attempted anything like this before. My passion is absent at the moment, instead replaced by a natural desire to compete. Let’s hope it is enough.
It’s hard work this novel writing lark; especially when trying to do it as part of a month long writing gig. Rather than writing when the fever takes you and when you are inspired, like normal. I am finding it especially hard to write when I am not in the mood. Like right now. I am not actually inspired by the fact that I have come so far so soon. I should be. But such is the fickle muse. You’re always jonesing for more and counting the seconds till she appears again and graces you with her presence.
The weird thing is that I am not at work right now. I took a week off, to use up some leave, take a break and reconnect with my writing and I have found it difficult to do. Perhaps I am too used to writing in a rush on the morning and evening train now, to actually write in a comfy chair, with a selection of good tunes to accompany me etc – as was my usual method. If it gets bad you may find me with a one-day travel card lurking on the train from London to Brighton, just going back and forth….
Yes folks, 25,048 words and I’m only halfway through the 3rd of my 7 badly designed chapters! I am pleasantly surprised that their appears to be life in the novel yet, and that I do not feel that I have even scraped the surface yet. It would be nice if this brief spell of positivity continues.
The little accidents of invention are definitely worth the effort and the emotional pain of stumbling through this new creative world. Let’s hope I can stay on track tomorrow and keep producing.
In other news I have finally treated myself to a 32″ LCD TV, after 8 years of thinking about it…. yes I am not know for much financial spontaneity… but it is a thing of beauty… ;0) Anyway, the point is that I deserve a reward for an epic day of effort. I am going to watch DRAG ME TO HELL.
I hope, if any of you are reading this,that your own creative endeavours are also going as well.