We’re very happy to learn that COMFORT HIM is an official selection of Cabane A Sang fest in Montreal. Very cool! This is such an honour, especially after MR CLEAN didn’t make it to their selection last year.
In other news, work is continuing ahead on two feature scripts.
And I’m still prevaricating on where to re-incorporate the film company, before then redesigning the website and where to move the blog to, to stop it filling up my web storage. So changes will come. I’m just taking my sweet time about it.
Work to progress the feature film project is not moving as fast as I’d like. Mainly this is a casting issue – with local cast members not being as responsive / super excited as previous years. Covid, pandemic fatigue and serious illnesses are a factor in some cases. But I’ve not yet given up hope of reforming the team for future success.
But for now, I’ll take that surprise fest selection as a sign to keep on going. Hope everyone is doing well despite war, covid and other global issues.
A year where a lot of good things occurred, re awards and such, and I managed to remain employed despite the pandemic hardships, but yet there was a fair amount of negative stress and health issues too.
It’s long. So feel free to skip it. But hopefully it’s a revealing take on a year in a creative life. It’s not going to be up on the site for long… tick- tick- tick….
Thank you to everyone who’s helped and supported us / me. You’re awesome! Couldn’t have done anything without some great supportive friends, mentors and collaborators to help me along the way.
April – IMPRINT picked up more awards. And then more. And more. And then a 5th. The short of SVEN GUNNAR got into a fest while I was halfway through writing the feature version. Up until this point there had been lots of desire for this script / to make the feature. I was getting regular calls and messages for progress updates and doing my best to deal with a very challenging work project.
May – SVEN GUNNAR was released on youtube and due to much effort in promotion and marketing did much better than COMFORT HIM with 15K views (it was 17k at first and then thousands of views stats disappeared. Weird) – and I was happy for Darwin’s success and impressed at the results. And I finished the feature script for SVEN GUNNAR and again tried for 30 days but it took a month and a half to get it done, due to sickness. I released multiple BTS videos on COMFORT HIM which no one cared about. IMPRINT was again a finalist in a top-flight screenplay fest. MAGIC IS MURDER, the feature script I overhauled and polished for Simon O’Kill, got into the semi-finals of a festival. And I also met with Hasse and Johnny re SVEN GUNNAR feature, and started working on my third feature script – my pagan horror feature BLÖDA. Although I was surprised that some of the more interested parties wanting SVEN GUNNAR to be written, after chasing me for months, were completely uninterested to read it. Also the situation from January was then thrown back in my face, again. I decided to move on rather than deal with such BS again. However, I was more distracted by illness and doing a Covid test and despite everything pointing at Covid, it wasn’t. But my lungs were properly fucked for a good while and travel wasn’t an option and it was quite a miserable time.
December – The builders finally finished and fucked-off! I could hear myself thing after 18 months of construction. IMPRINT picked up its 12th and 13th awards and then its 13, 14th and 15th awards. I ran out of steam a bit half way through the BLÖDA rewrite and pick up rewrite on BLOOD RAGE, to change things up a bit and get halfway through that. We’d planned to go over to the UK but it didn’t look doable. The new variant put paid to that idea. Others who felt more confident were being struck by it when they attempted travel. But I also battled burnout and a crushing depression. Burning the candle at both ends was taking its toll. A time for rest, meditation and reflection was needed as the year came to a close with a funeral.
We closed out the year with around 37 awards across four projects (#12 for MR CLEAN, #6 for COMFORT HIM, #4 for GAS!, #15 for IMPRINT). I only share that news / number because I still can’t believe it. It was never about winning so many awards, but getting validation for whether we’re producing work of the right quality. And it seemed like we were on the right track.
IMPRINT already has 3 actors in consideration for roles who love the script. More to do to make it happen. But the gamble / strategy of getting the script into fests to get some attention has paid off to attract fellow collaborators.
What the above doesn’t really reflect is:
that I learned quite a bit. Not all good. That despite the evidence to the contrary, people can doubt your intentions. I learned who was really supportive. Who was keen to give as well as to take. Who was quite happy to break promises or agreements. And that despite how inaccurate some perceptions of you might be, sometimes you’re just unable to change that perception and fix things and you should just move on. It was clear that some collaborations were coming to an end, as other exciting potential collaborations were arising. Potential projects rarely go to plan – even when you try and control all the elements. Something can always happen to derail or delay project which is out of your hands, but I tried to bob and weave and keep forward momentum regardless.
I learned that despite all the jabs, Covid is still very much messing up the festival circuit and everything else and my immune system always has more surprises in store when you’re exhausted by the side-effects.
Sadly my account above doesn’t really capture the success of other projects I helped and have been supporting. And I’m happy for all of those teams for how they’ve been received and the accolades they’ve won. I merely tried to document what I’m responsible for. But I’m grateful for being a part of those projects in whatever way I could help.
The list above doesn’t really capture the stress of the day job and the demands it places on you. The battle with your health. Nor does it capture the bereavements and losses and the near misses. Or the sacrifices that you must place on relationships to meet deadlines and produce quality work, the doubts or the crushing depression.
It doesn’t really capture the projects that were supposed to be completed and released, but were abandoned due to shifting priorities. Something I’m also guilty of.
It doesn’t really capture that I merely reported the progress of these projects in various festivals to chart what had happened. But my focus was never on the pursuit and collection of awards per se, other than to help raise the profile of the projects themselves – to aid production / distribution and facilitate the networking process. The fact that many of the live festivals I planned to attend did not happen when they were supposed to was out of my control, but it did bug me. And no I didn’t chart all of the rejections. But believe me there’s been enough of them.
It was clear that despite working like a maniac to create, following through on every creative promise and putting off holidays and putting health second, to pursue your dreams, that others don’t value the sacrifices you made. And so next year, although I will still pursue my goals, I will try and spend more time living life for myself and not for other people unless they’re paying or there’s a genuine reason to shift priorities. Although I am very positive about potential collaborations and future projects, what will be will be. I have ambitious goals and will strive for them, but try to find more of a work life balance. And I’ll continue to seek out collaborative friendships.
Life is about the opportunities you create. There’s no right and wrong. There is only the doing and the not doing. We can all think about what might have been, but we’ve just got to stay focussed on what we believe to be the right direction to continue heading in. And get on with it. And I’m confident with that mindset we’ll all get there and help each other along the way.
It hasn’t been the best of years, yet so much good has happened and I have achieved a lot. I really earned that Birthday celebration this year, and I’ve earned some rest. But I still would have liked to have done more:
TUMBLE DYING – didn’t get finished. Purely rests on my shoulders. I should have ignored demands to write SVEN GUNNAR and just continue with editing the short while I had momentum behind me, considering others didn’t keep up their end of the deal with reading the finished feature script. But soon, I will usher it forward.
BLÖDA – picking a project that was time dependent, despite being a cracking idea, was a dumb thing to lock yourself into producing a film at a set time, when unforseen construction work could then prevent the production from happening. But there’s nothing to stop me making this happen in the future.
FILM PRODUCTION – although I released 5 videos this year, and I did some work in the background to begin to cast and crew some potential productions and created some practical FX, I did not actually shoot or make any new narrative films. I also didn’t get to create any more music videos this year. But I have devoted much time to learning about the business aspects and the practicalities of raising finance etc: I also widened my network and made some new friends, and I’m excited to try and get a few projects off the ground in 2022. But seeing COMFORT HIM get distribution on DVD was a lovely present at the end of the year.
SCREENWRITING – I did well this year, devoting myself again to more development on plotting / narrative structure. I wrote three feature scripts and one kick-ass short film and I’ve been plotting another feature. I got reassurance that my writing has merit both from super helpful trusted readers, coverage reviews and from festivals. And I’m genuinely fired up to improve my rewriting / editing skills and to start submitting features to festivals next year and to learn to pitch them, to try and get them read. Although I still want to make more films, writing is my thing and definitely how I want to continue – my main passion.
SELF DEVELOPMENT – I did a lot of courses and webinars this year about 15 in all. But there are three I need to finish pretty damn quick and 1 I planned to devote my time to after I got derailed by the first assignment. Read a script a week up until December, when I ran out of time. But did pretty well over all. Think I read about 45. Sadly didn’t always write them down. I read plenty of books, but not nearly enough. Certainly not enough for pleasure. And more time was spent watching films. I want to read more in 2022 and continue to grow.
TRAVEL – other than going to Dalarna and Eksjö this summer, I didn’t really travel anywhere. Covid was high on my mind, and the need to isolate. But I had planned to attend fests and travel to the UK and neither happened. Got to rectify this in 2022.
HEALTH – It’s not been great. It can be better.
2022 GOALS / RESOLUTIONS
So what about 2022?
My creative goals / wants are as follows:
1. Redo the website
2. Prepare my pitch deck and email marketing materials (loglines, synopsis etc) for my feature scripts
3. Learn how to pitch (and work on my pitching skills and do some pitch sessions and get feedback on areas to improve)
4. Do more networking (attend more networking sessions – and widen and deepen my network)
5. Get coverage on the scripts I want to send out (and learn from it / use it to polish the scripts for submission)
7. Improve my dialogue (re subtext and furthering the plot)
8. Enter feature screenplay competitions
9. Shoot my first feature film
10. Finish TUMBLE DYING.
But overall I just want this living experiment we call life to be more positive and happier in 2022. I want some travel and I want to see loved ones. It’s been far too long!
I hope everyone has an amazing 2022 and keeps chasing their dreams.
And if you read any of this and don’t hate me, I really hope you found something useful in the above. Even if it’s just to motivate you to also strive to achieve more this year.
We’re very happy to learn that the short horror film script IMPRINT has picked up its 13th, 14th and 15th awards! and just before the end of the year too. Nice. A great little winning spurt in December.
We’re very grateful to all of the festival selections, placings and awards that have been given to us this year. Truly. Thank you to all of the festivals that took a chance on each of our projects. We still can’t believe that a total of 37 awards have been awarded to our projects, and that we even finally broke the Scandinavian region curse and placed and won over here too. Nice.
We really hope to be able to share more news in 2022, especially about nudging IMPRINT a little further into production. But please note, the website will be undergoing some changes in the new year. We need to rethink how and what we share news wise, where we share it in order to keep website storage down and to prepare for the next phase of Eibon Films. So don’t be surprised if we start killing off a few posts here and there soon!
It’s been quite an eventful time of late. A lot of it not good – regarding bereavements and sick cats – but I was really chuffed to find out this week that the short horror script for IMPRINT has picked up its 12th award and 32nd official selection.
And as you can see, I’m not displaying all of the selections and placements, as that would clutter the poster up. But it’s done so well to date. I can’t wait to make it and see how the eventual film blows people away.
We’re very happy to learn that IMPRINT has been selected to and made it into the Semi-Finals of the Stockholm Short Festival. This makes it a second selection in Sweden. Not bad, considering other projects were ignored for a few years by the Scandinavian region. Not too shabby at all.
We also have some other good news, in that the builders appear to be finally near to done / if not already done. The builders have been creating noise pollution, and vibrations from construction and blasting for nearly 18 months, so soon we can finally record sound again and also shoot in the local area, without their equipment and safety barriers ruining the view. Nice.
Also, for one of the other festivals that IMPRINT is in competition – the BE AFRAID HORROR FEST in Gorizia Italy – Please find the complete program here. And the festival teaser here. – it looks like an excellent line-up.
October was a busy month, but sadly not in the way we wanted. There was supposed to be a live event for Halloween here in Sweden and then that sadly didn’t happen. What was annoying is that there was an event to go to in the US on the same day and we opted for the local event, because it would have been the first Swedish screening – and then by the time we found out the local event wasn’t happening it was too late to go to the one in the US… doh!
However, other than watching bucketloads of horror films for Shocktober / 31DaysofHalloween – there has been some good news.
MR CLEAN is having a busy time of it with online screenings. The short horror film was part of the FIXION Fest Halloween special /especial de terror: https://www.fixionfest.com/noticias/especial-de-terror-halloween-2021/ where it was being screened for free. But sadly that short run / possibility to see the short is now over. However, MR CLEAN is also going to be screened on the FILMIN LATINO platform, which is run by the Ministry of Culture of Mexico, and will be visible from November 17 to 21, 2021 (to anyone using a VPN to get around the geoblocking – you’ll need to appear to be visiting and watching from within Mexico).
The short script for IMPRINT has made it to the finals of the Swedish International Film Festival (SIFF) in the ‘Best Short Script’ category. It’s incredible, but great news that the short script is doing so well with 27 selections, numerous awards and festival placings. I know competition is tough, but fingers crossed.
And in other news, we’ve begun discussions with some potential cast members and are looking to progress the project and edge it towards development / pre-production.
IMPRINT is now an official selection of the Red Moon Film Festival – this is the 27th festival selection. Also, IMPRINT has been officially selected and is now a finalist in the ‘Horror Short Screenplay’ category at Be Afraid Horror Fest in Gorizia, Italy. Winners will be announced towards the end of November.
Yet more festival news to share – we’re so very grateful for such kind treatment from festivals, especially as we have had a few more rejections too.
Firstly, the dark horror short screenplay for IMPRINT has been officially selected to the Swedish International Film Festival (SIFF)! That’s great news, as it’s the 25th selection! and it is the same festival that has already selected and bestowed awards upon MR CLEAN and COMFORT HIM 60. So fingers crossed that this script makes it further into the competition. And congrats to the other selections! We hope to meet you all at the screening in Arvika, Sweden.
COMFORT HIM has also been put through to the finals of the 4th Dimension Independent Film Festival in the Best Experimental Film category. That’s also great news, because MR CLEAN and IMPRINT also won awards at this festival and it’s the 23rd festival selection. So fingers crossed that this film also gets screened live in Indonesia / makes it through to the winning selection. Congrats to the other finalists!